Blogging...a history of the beginning....

Well one night I lay awake until 3 and her words replayed in my mind. 

"Write a blog, keep it updated and one day on your CV it will look impressive. Make sure you have loads of followers and comments. Show them your best blog with most comments. They will surely be impressed." she had said, meaning well for me. I don't think in her wildest dreams she must have imagined her words would keep me up that night (and maybe few more following nights.)

So to impress those monsters (or interviewers in other words) I had to keep a blog. I thought all night and came up blank. What do you actually blog about? Next morning, I went to this website where people posted their blogs. It was a Harry Potter fan site. Some posted about snippets of their lives, some posted about what had lately inspired them to write but most just blogged about the Magical World.

Surely interviewers wouldn't want to read about my obsession with J.K.Rowling's magical world, would they? Nope my mind answered. Then what should I blog about I thought. My life is not as interesting to be blogged about. Nor do I do crazy stuff about which the world needs to know. And my thoughts? Well let's just say if I start with thinking about an apple within few minutes I would end up thinking about maybe airplanes or the Taj Mahal or any other random un-connected topic. But if you were to ask me I would give you a direct logical chain, going back from the Taj Mahal to the apple via a completely connected chain. 

But sadly it's not apples or monuments I think of. It's people, incidences, moments I think of. People who would kill me if they knew this is how I thought of them, incidences which are better of forgotten and moments too private to be posted.

So back to my original point, what should I blog about? I let that idea swim in my overfull brain. Did I really need that one more strain in my (so-called) important board year. Shouldn't I be studying Economics rather than think of topics to post about? My obsession with wanting to blog was crossing all limits. I would stay up nights and nights thinking of a perfect first blog to post. I would type on my mobile save drafts and finally sleep around 3-4 in the morning. Next morning on waking up I would read through the draft and go like "OMG what have I written?" and delete it off.

This phrase continued for almost a month. Sleep-less nights were taking a toll on my health. My dark circles had become even more prominent. In my sleep-deprived state neither could I study nor concentrate on anything else. Anyone who asked me to do something would either get a dirty look or be snapped at. I had come to a point where writing a blog was all I could think of!

Then it happened. The most amazing thing! I wrote something in the middle of the night, which was coherent in the light of the day, interesting to read and most importantly good. I was happy. I smiled after days. My family was shocked at the change but decided not to mention it. I was looking forward to evening, when after a final proof read I would finally post my first blog! Excited I opened the draft in my phone to re-read it, and beam at my words. I still don't know what happen, but in my haste to read somehow my phone ended up getting re-started and the moment it came on my draft was gone. Lost somewhere, I didn't know where. I tried to type those words out again. But they never came back to me!

Disheartened, taking it as a sign from the heavens, I gave up on my need to blog. For months at a stretch I tried to delete that topic from my mind. But I never really deleted it. Just pushed it back to some tiny dark corner. So imagine my surprise today when I just opened this site and created my blog. And the best part? These words have just flown and not exactly thought up....and believe me this is better than ANY draft I created.

This made me realize that pre-planning and obsessing never works. It's the words from the heart that matter.

Words that are Direct Dil Se...!