Clueless. Jobless. Educationless.

Caution: These are the rambles of a jobless not-so-teen-but-still-teen-in-the-head. This may or may not make sense. Proceed with care as it might make you question the decisions in your life too.

This is something I randomly said in a whatsapp group, while cribbing about my not-so-sorry-yet-very-sorry life: "Clueless. Jobless. Educationless." & well it got me thinking; you might know the deep stuff, like "What is the purpose of my life?" "What am I doing with my life?" "How did I land here?" etc. etc.

Yes, yes, yes, before someone kills me over the title: Strictly speaking I am NOT educationless. I am a graduate. But in today's society a degree without Masters, MBA, PhD is equivalent to being "HSC pass" (In other words it is just a paper that is not getting me any job). So yes by today's standards I am educationless!

A year ago, when I was standing at an intersection, the turning point of my life, I chose (albeit stupidly)  journalism as my major. I loved writing, I was getting to pursue my childhood dream, all my friends were going to be with me, what could go wrong? I never anticipated what a mess I would be in a year later.

Take a lesson kids. Before choosing your subjects (even for 10th grade) do a thorough research of your options and what are the opportunities that will be available for you in the future.I learned this lesson the hard way.

So yes, in journalism! Getting a job is very difficult. Landing a job that pays you well is a dream. And when you get a job that pays you enough that you don't need to survive on a wada pav a day? Writing something you want is out of the window. So if you are cool with writing the same thing, 9 hours a day, 5 days a week, congrats you have a job! But the others who are not into monotony? Well hello sitting at home all day!

So this is why I am jobless & educationless. But a well organized girl like me, how could I end up so clueless?

I tried my hand at social media. I liked it too. But this is not what I dreamed of. I wanted to be the next J.K.Rowling, not a Mark Zuckerberg wannabe! Stuck here in this loop, I am clueless what should I do now.

Do a masters in something I'm not even remotely interested in? Take a job I don't even want to do? Or change my field and pour water over everything I have done for the past 3 years?

Well time will tell where I go, but my decision will be Direct Dil Se!